The pain caused by a man that takes your power is far greater than that of a man that understands and respects your power, a man that contributes towards building your character, a man that knows your worth and prioritises your well being. Oh yes, it hurts more... a physical hurt that bruises the heart and paralyses the body... a punch in the stomach from the power you gave... a pain that you CHOOSE will only be healed by the man that took your power...
He comes back to ease that pain until he leaves again or he finds another to love... and you find yourself right back to the source of hurt... And he still possesses YOUR power! You accustom yourself to a life of pain and sorrow and you become the company misery loves to keep...
One day you'll think you have it together and you are moving on and then that one phone call reminds you that you forgot a part of you where you once hurt! The strength you thought was in you is suddenly an illusion, the courage you searched for to find freedom from this man is immediately chained, the wisdom you gained from the experience of being with this man is merely a figment of your imagination in the seconds it took to answer that call!
Claim YOUR power... Own it... Take what's yours! Unchain yourself from the oppression of pain YOU have allowed to live in... Take back your power! It's yours... You have the strength, courage and wisdom to know you need to move on, without the power, you cannot mobilize those precious vehicles to freedom!
You deserve the power that you were born with as a woman... you are phenomenal!!!!!! He just doesn't respect and understand your power... He'll forever walk all over it... Don't get your power stuck on the soles of the wrong shoes!
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why does that one phone call take you back to square one though?being able to relate to being "stuckon the soles of the wrong shoes" i now ask myself why did i keep going back especially when i knew nothing's changed...perhaps i might have been so comfortable with the situation that i neglected to remember that i deserve(d) better than what i was settling for? Lovely read sussie. it hit home HARD.
ReplyDeletewe go back because it is "comfortable" in the sense that you know what you put in and get out, where if you start something new you have to learn that person from scratch. I remember crying a couple of months ago, thinking I cannot meet someone new, "I want my bad habit back" and that is what he is/was. a bad habit that makes my knees weak and wobble, but I know - I am worth better than a bad habit.
ReplyDeleteMmmmm...speechless!!only cos it hit home, bad habits indeed! Temporary s***
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