I have had friends in my life and still do, who know the surface of who I am! In fact, they all know the surface, even the closest of friends. Last night I shared my story with my ex boyfriend, who I was with for two years! He didn't know the depth of my pain! He knew that I struggled with things in my past but I managed to block them out of my head! I had mastered the art of extending just the surface of who I am! I believed my issues were gone because I blocked them out! i could have turned out differently, I think... Rebellious and a nuisance but I managed to keep it together and not attract too much attention.
He shared his life story... I knew right then where some unexplained behavioral traits stemmed from! I now felt I knew this man more than ever before! This was the story I needed to hear from the beginning... But everything has a time and place.
He understands my fears, I understand his. It felt right to share it! There were only 3 people that made my list of the people I thought I could trust with such information... My mother didn't make the list... She is far too emotional! I have given the 2 people but I'm scared to share with this 3rd person in case I'm overstepping boundaries... Should I? Should I not? I struggle with trust! But I trust these 3 people...
Thank you for accepting my story! You are phenomenal people! You make life easier to face! U inspire and motivate me to do more!
What's your story?
Opening up to your partner is never an easy task because you're never assured if they'll leave or stay once they know the real you...my story is still being written I'm blessed to have you as a chapter in it. #stay_beautiful
ReplyDelete"Trust is to human relationships what faith is to gospel living. It is the beginning place, the foundation upon which more can be built. Where trust is, love can flourish." ~Barbara Smith
ReplyDeleteChoosing to trust someone is a difficult decision for anyone but sometimes you just have to take the plunge and hope that the person is mature enough to handle you opening up. Look, whether or not that person is mature or not, you have no control over that but it will be a step in your journey. Not even sure I'm making sense but oh well, that's me!
I thought I had it figured out until last week Sunday when someone that has always been in my life just complicated matters between us even more. Do I tell or do I wait until it's wedding invitation time?
ReplyDeleteGreat post! I'm Heather and I have a question about your blog! My email is Lifesabanquet1(at)gmail(dot)com :-)
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